Saturday, July 16, 2011

Breaking Out of My Comfort Zone

Um, yea...that bloodwork? Still haven't gone. I'm seeing my doctor on Monday for my yearly checkup and I'm not excited about the lecture I'll get. It's totally out of character for me to avoid knowing my cholesterol level. I'm the first one to run to the doctor with a suspicious bump on my skin, convinced it's skin cancer. I never miss a yearly checkup, and I jumped at the chance to have genetic testing eleven years ago. I almost always do everything I'm told to do to recover from an injury or surgery. I just feel like my risks for heart attack or stroke are low. Yes, my cholesterol is probably high, but my blood pressure is normal, I eat lots of veggies, fruits, beans (and not much meat), and I exercise every day. I don't drink, smoke, or do recreational drugs. I'm going to bring these facts up to my doctor and see what she says. She'll probably point out that I'm overweight.

I am doing a decent job of trying to push the boundaries of my comfort lately. I signed up for golf lessons in the spring, and actually made it through all six. I've gone through these particular lessons twice previously and skipped at least two of them each session. I got all panicky that I wasn't good enough, was going to be stared at or thought of as a bad golfer, or chastized by the teacher for not practicing, or I was just too tired to go....or whatever. This time I talked an acqaintance into signing up with me so that I HAD to go (we rode together), and I signed up on Saturday morning, so I didn't have the "too tired" excuse. I took vacation time on the two Saturdays that I would have had to work, so it all worked out. I was pretty proud of myself for making it through the lessons, and when the instructor mentioned the Wednesday night beginners golf league he runs, I was tempted to join. I dismissed the idea, since I'm not a good golfer. After all, if you aren't good at something, why bother? (has truly always been my secret thought in the past about...well, about pretty much everything) However, my friend Julie asked if I wanted to be her partner in the league and "yes" popped out of my mouth. Oh. My. Word. The first week of play I was sooooo incredibly nervous and scared and panicked. But, it was fine. Totally fine. Yes, I'm bad. So is my partner (she's actually worse than I am, most weeks). Big deal. It's a beginners' league, so we're expected to be bad. Everyone we've played so far has been very gracious and patient. I feel so confident now that when my dh asked me if I was planning to play in his dad's family's 86th annual golf tournament, I said yes without any hesitation.

We joined the neighborhood weight loss challenge again this summer, and they added a new component. We get points for showing up to a weekly exercise activity on Sunday afternoons. The first week's activity was beach volleyball. Let me tell you, the last time I had played volleyball was at least 20 years ago. I went to a game with my then-boyfriend, who pressured me into playing in spite of my protestations that I was awful and didn't want to play. Sure enough, I didn't hit the ball once. Not one single solitary time. At first there was laughter -- nervous laughter on my part and "isn't this fun?" laughter on the part of the other players. As the game went on, there were fewer laughs and more sympathetic looks from others, as I got hotter and hotter with mortification. There was grim silence when the game finally, mercifully ended. So, you can understand my reticence about playing with my neighbors. Not to mention the whole "not allowed to jump, run, hop after shattering leg" thing. They told me I could just show up and get points without playing (they all know about my leg), so even my dh was quite surprised when I said I'd try playing. I figured that since it was on sand, my knee might be okay. And it was. My knee was pretty sore the next day, but playing was fine. I wasn't great, but I wasn't horrible. I hit the ball quite a few times and wasn't a total disgrace to my team. It was even kind of fun. Kind of. My dh was very proud of me for playing and I was too.

7 comments:

Mary said...

It was so good to see your post...but I am so worried about the direction you are going in to get fit. Remember last time, I mentioned Nourishing Traditions by Sally Fallon? Please pick-up a copy.

And also look at website for the Weston A Price Foundation where Sally is the Director. Go to:

http://www.westonaprice.org/

This will change your life.

Also, there are lots of videos on You Tube that you can watch about the Sally Fallon and the Weston A Price Foundation that will really help get you started. Not sure if the comment section will let me send you all the links but I'll try to send some in another post.

Love,

Mary

Mary said...

Here is the link to a great video about the Weston A Price Foundation...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IRfnYthqbNk

Hope this helps.

Love,

Mary

wife2abadge said...

I don't really understand why you're worried. I'm not over exercising. I think I did look at the book you mentioned, but i'll take another look. IIRC, it was about eating things like organ meats and non pasturized dairy? I really can't stomach eating much meat anymore.

Mary said...

LOL! Yes, the organ meats and raw milk! :-) You don't need to do that. Certainly, those things are good for you...super foods...and have kept cultures healthy for thousands of years...but you may have to work up to that. :-) Overall, I was just hoping that NT might help you to get off what seems sort of like a diet/exercise roller coaster that you have been on for a long time.

You seem so sweet and I would love to see you put all this need to worry about weight loss behind you. Eating the NT way - and you don't need a lot of meat - will really help you to get into the shape you want. The bone broths are especially helpful and there is an added benefit...all the collagen will make your skin look fantastic! :-)

PS... a great NT site with videos on how to cook certain dishes - that you will love - can be found at the Healthy Home Economist. Sarah is a wonderful teacher. Go to:

http://www.thehealthyhomeeconomist.com/sarah/

Wishing you all the best.

Love,

Mary

wife2abadge said...

Thanks - I'll take a look at it.

Mary said...

I wanted to share this post with you that sums up how I go about implementing Nourishing Traditions in my kitchen. And I want to stress...I am not a purist! LOL!! :-)

And also - if you don't have the NT book handy, you really don't need it. There are so many wonderful blogs that can help. And of course the Weston A Price site is an invaluable resource.

All the best!

Love,

Mary

How to Eat Right to Lose Weight said...

I came across your blog. Nice read. :)